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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Another New Child is Born

Circa 1980
We get the call at 7:30.
Debbie Wietz is my partner on Rescue 140.
She cranks up the heater and I grab the Microphone on the Chevy Rescue truck's console as we pull the rig up to a white washed stucco house set a hundred feet back from the curb.
The call had come in as a possible seizure and that looked to be acurate as I calmly approached a Spanish looking women in her mid twenties sitting on a dark overstuffed chair in the gloom of the living room.
I opened the trauma kit and and retrieved the blood pressure cuff as Debbie called into the Fire Station on her walkie.
Suddenly, she called out softly,but urgently. "Michael, come here, you've got to see this." She was standing ten feet away, in the dimly lit bathroom. "Ma'am, " I said to the patient, "I'll be right back, OK?" I walked over to Debbie and she gestured towards the toilet.
I peered into the bowl.
It was a purplish foetus, or more properly, a neonate.
I scooped the infant from the toilet.
"Debbie, all the station, tell them we are transporting, get some firemen over here for the seizure patient."
Within seconds Tony Garcia and Henry Vega entered the room and began working on the mother.
I began doing CPR on the baby as Deb and I hurried to the Rescue truck.
Street lights lit the cab's interior as Deb guided the vehicle through the otherwise darkened streets while simultaneously reporting to the ER on the Med radio. Although CPR is not successful very often, the best candidate for resuscitation is a young person.
I could feel the air gently whooshing into her lungs as I blew into her nose and mouth.
I heard Debbie speaking softly on the radio to the ER doctor, "Her color is improving, Meds. She's crying!"
Within a few minutes we were in the parking lot of the hospital and relieved by the er team who inserted a breathing tube and began giving the baby oxygen.
Afterwards Debbie and I and a couple of Nurses celebrated the successful revival of the infant in the parking lot with cigarettes and cokes.
The mother named the child Naomi Manuel.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

One door

I'm living in the Sandia Mountains. The clear blue sky is fragrant with pine, the breezes caress my skin .
I feel freedom, yet a deep sadness.I am working on a philosophy that can help me through the rest of my life, and it seems I need to be away from society to clear my head, to see what is and isn't important.
For breakfast I had bird's eggs and pinon nuts with dandelion tea.I think of my kids in Tucson.
Blue-eyed tomboy Mary Kate, Daddy's girl Michele. I wish nothing more than to go back to Tucson and hold them in my arms, but I've got to be somebody first.
I can't go back to Tucson and have them think I'm a bum, that their Dad is a loser. I gaze at the stream in the canyon,
"Things were so much simpler in the old days."
Ten years ago I'd married my high school sweetheart, Mary Ann. Things seemed like they could help but get better.
Before our marriage I'd been on my own, working at a truck stop out side of town. During slow periods I wrote in my journal.
I had written some comments in my journal about the boss, unfortunately I left the journal one morning at the end of my shift, on the counter, and he didn't particularly care to see himself in the way I described him, I'll just say, it wasn't flattering, although it was accurate.
That night I was told I wouldn't be needed anymore.
The job it self was not all that much of a loss, but I lived in a bunkhouses, free of charge, so I not only lost my job, I lost my home at the same time.
I swallowed my pride and drove to Mary Ann's duplex in South Tucson.I pulled the beat up Falcon up to the curb and knocked on the door. Mary invited me inside.
Mary played on the floor with a friction car, Michele was sleeping in her crib.
"Would you like some coffee, Michael?"
Mary inquired. "Sure, thanks,"
"How's everything going with you?" she asked. "Well...Umm...I got fired."Mary looked placidly at me."Fired? What happened?" I told her the story of the journal. Then I asked if I could stay with her and the kids for a few days."OK, " she said, "I'll make the couch for you."Beggars can't be choosers, I thought to myself. That night, while I lay stretched out on the couch I heard the door to Mary's bedroom opening as she looked at me with a smile. Her golden hair glowed in the light from the kitchen."Are you comfortable?" she asked."Yes, I am, thank you." She nodded."Would you rather sleep in the bedroom?"I cocked myself up on one elbow, "Of course..."
"Come on," she said, and gestured to me.
As I went towards her I thought to myself, You know, sometimes life really is good.
Sometimes when one door closes, many more are opened.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Chapter One

The sun is streaming through the burgundy curtains.
I stretch and walk down the hall towards the kitchen.
Dylan, my 2 year old sees me coming and yells joyfully, "Daddy's up!"All three boys run towards me and grab me by the legs, hugging and shouting, "Daddy's up! Daddy's up"
I reach down, pick up little Dylan and lift him over my head.
He laughs as I rub his belly.
"My turn, Dad." says Ricky.

I look into his hazel eyes and tousle his hair.

It's like looking into a mirror in the past.

I swing him into the air and kiss the top of his head.

I lower Ricky and grab Mike.

He's laughing as I tickle his ribs.

" Come here you." I say as I lift him over my shoulder.

"Who's the greatest Dad of all times?" I shout.

Dylan and Ricky point at me and cry
"You are, Dad!" Mikey is draped over my shoulder, "Well?" I say as I look at him.

"Hmm--" He says, as if pondering something insoluble, "The greatest Dad of all times...who could it be?” I pretend that I'm about to drop him .

“You are!" He yells rapidly.” That’s better." I smile.

I walk into the kitchen.
I grab a cup of instant, toss in lots of sugar, and mix it with hot water from the tap.
Mikey is sitting in front of the TV playing video games; Ricky and Dylan are sitting next to their Mom on the couch. Ricky asks if I'm off today.

I feint a couple of jabs at his rib-cage, "I'm off, Son."

“The kids yell in unison, "Daddy's off today! "


“Let me do some housework, guys, and we'll go swimming or something later. "
I grab the vacuum from the closet and do the rugs.
“Jeanne, "Would you mind giving the boys a bath? “

She  puts the boys in  the tub.
While they're bathing I finish vacuuming and wipe down the surfaces of the stove, refrigerator and the tables and other furniture.
After I finish making everyone's beds the boys troop into the bedroom and we wrestle for a while.
Jeanne is playing with Evelyn on the couch.
"Look, Dad, she's blowing bubbles.”
I gaze at the baby, she looks happy to be with her Mom.” Hello, Evie," I murmur, and kiss her on the nose.
Mikey is playing "Spiderman" on his Play Station; Dylan is imitating the sound of a motor as he pushes his truck across the floor.
Ricky is on his trike wheeling up and down the hallway. Suddenly the room begins to fade. The entire scene dissolves.
I’d been dreaming. My eyes snap open wide. The bright lights overhead penetrate my brain, my head throbs.
I hear a voice, "Blackburn, are you OK?



In South Tucson, circa 1980



The old man stood on his porch on a tree lined street in a town in Arizona and madly fired off a round from the 30.6 rifle he cradled in his arms.
Within minutes, South Tucson and Tucson Police surrounded his little white stucco house, and believing that a group of snipers was inside, filled the house, and the old black man, with a number of high impact projectiles.
During the "battle" two Policemen, Sergeants, Andy Garcia and Roy Garcia were hit by stray bullets. Andy's wound caused an ugly scar; he was transported by ambulance to Tucson Medical Center.
Sergeant Roy Garcia of the Tucson PD., was hit in the spine, and paralyzed from the neck down. T
he old man now lay on his back, cold and stiff on the pavement in front of his lawn, killed in the opening salvos of gunfire.
Al Quesada and I were manning the Paramedic unit that night and were asked to verify the man's death.
"He's about as dead as he could be." Al remarked dryly, after a brief visual exam. "Poor son of a bitch," I muttered.
One of the cops looked down through veiled eyes, hand resting comfortably on the blue steel revolver on his hip, "Call a Meds unit for this worthless, former, piece of shit, fellas, let's go home."
I'd been with the Dept for almost 20 years, I'd experienced a lot of death and disaster, but this particular scene left a very bad taste in my mouth.
Chief Roquillo had watched the entire scene unfolding, his dark, and handsome face impassive throughout.
After the ambulance removed the body his eyes were moist, "Christ, what a waste of human life." he said.
He looked at the Paramedic Unit, then at Al and I.
"Take it back to the corral, Men." He said.
Al backed the vehicle out of the driveway, pointed the wheels to the north, and gunned the engine.
Some of the crowd that had gathered looked in our direction.
I heard someone say, "Look at all the blood!" as he pointed towards the sidewalk.
We drove slowly back to the Station in the light of a full moon, the black asphalt street wet and reflective from rain.
A barefoot Mexican kid trotted parallel to our rig, splashing up glassy puddles as he ran, shouting and waving,
"HEY Rescue! Hey Al, Hey Mike!" Al clicked on the siren for a second as he waved at the urchin, who beamed back gratefully, his shiny, black hair streaming rain drops.
We'd been running calls all night.
A cold film of sweat covered my face; my uniform was blood-streaked and damp.
Al pulled the truck to the curb, an ancient, black crone laid on the sidewalk, struggling to rise. Her white hair was in disarray as she lay propped on one skinny arm.
Al walked over to her and spoke gently, "Are you alright, Grandmother?" I felt like I was in a dream.
From a small adobe hut in the blackness across the street, mariachi music brassily poured out into the night, mixed with muffled yelps and cries.
The old lady snarled, "Get away, leave me alone or I call the police!"
Next to the house emitting the strange sounds was an old market, made useless by a recent fire. The rain brought out the smell of burned and blackened timbers, a sickly, smoky, dead odor. The crone rose unsteadily, desperately clutching a wet paper bag which threatened to dissolve, exposing the green wine bottle within.
Al looked bemused as he returned to the rig and drove on. He was the kind of Fireman that was moved by death and exposure to the daily grind of existence for so many of the poor in this little barrio in Arizona.
Thunder exploded in the distance, my window was down, the rain drenched my face, it felt good. Al turned the corner and we approached the Station.
A small, foamy, brown river churned in front of the driveway as we backed in. Al shut down the engine and I snapped off the radios as he climbed from the rig.
"Let's have some coffee, Mike," he suggested softly. He walked around the shiny, red unit, opened my door lightly and rested a hand on my shoulder, "Come on, Partner."
I rubbed my eyes wearily, I felt old. "Go ahead, Al, I'll be right in." I couldn't get the eyes of the dead, old man out of my thoughts.
As I'd kneeled over him and looked into his staring, sightless eyes, I'd felt something, something that I couldn't verbalize.
I wiped my face with the back of my hand.
I was sweating profusely, technically, I was diaphoretic.
I gazed through the windshield at the stall door, my thoughts drifting.
"Mike, wake up! Wake up! We have a call!" I had dozed off in the cab, still belted in.
"I'm awake, Al." I groaned. "Are you alright, Mike?" He looked concerned. I shook my head, drops of perspiration flew from my face, "I'm fine, Al, let's roll."
I grabbed the Meds Radio microphone, "What have we got?" I looked over at Al as he shifted the vehicle and rolled out into the still rainy night,
"Structure fire,” he answered, "Wood Bros Hardware." I keyed the mike, "Meds, this is Rescue four zero, we're out of service responding to a structure fire at 2229 east two ninth street." "Check, rescue four zero, let us know when you're back."
"Ten four, Meds control" I replaced the mic and looked in the direction we were headed. Even in the rain and grey, overcast sky, thick black clouds of smoke were visible.
"We're going to earn our pay tonight, Al." I commented, dryly.
Al nodded. Adrenalin was flooding my system, and I began focusing on what I'd be doing next. Over the years I'd developed some techniques for dealing with fireground situations, most of the techniques involved ways of physically controlling the results of stress that assaulted the body and mind, while working inside of a building that has become a blazing inferno.
Thick, black, smoke billowed in the distance, tinged with orange.
A steady stream of conversation and messages crackled over the Motorola radios, STPD, TPD, and both cities fire depts. responding to what was obviously a large structure fire.
Adrenalin flowed as we pulled into Wood Bros Hardware parking lot.
Fire trucks were rolling up, gears grinding and billows of diesel smoke churning out behind them. Hoses were being strung out and water cannon were being played onto the sections of the building where the fire had broken through.
We drove to the Chief's car and I spoke to Ronquillo. “Chief, what's the situation?” He looked immaculate in his white shirt and cap, “There are civilians on the roof ... Al, you set up a first aid station, Mike you go with Frank Quiroz and get the civilians down.” “Check, Chief.”
I answered. “Mate”, he jokingly responded. Quiroz was standing a 32 foot ladder up the building's side, I grabbed a turnout coat, helmet and pants from engine one and slung a battered looking yellow air pack on my back and followed Frank onto the roof... It was a scene from hell. Huge fireballs exploded from the roof fifty feet in front of us.
I looked into the flames and saw what looked like funnels of fire which sucked the oxygen from the air around us.
We ushered the two civilians onto the ladder, and as the last one clambered over the side of the building he yelled, “Don't fall through!” I looked back towards Frank and saw his yellow helmet level with the roof, then disappear in a puff of smoke.
I thought, “Shit, Frank lost his helmet.” Then it hit me, “Frank fell into the building!”
I realized that the roof felt spongy, a distinct feeling, a warning, remembered from recruit training, about the way a roof feels just before it collapses.
I ran towards the wall and “Crack!” felt my foot go through.
As if to defy terrible gravity I willed myself upwards, threw my other foot forward and felt it rush threw a new opening in the roof, as superheated air rushed out.
Like a cartoon character I ran through the air and with a gasp fell into the inferno below me, my hands dragging at the collapsing roof now above me, madly clawing at the wall as I plunged downwards.
As I fell I saw intense orange flame everywhere, I felt my flesh beginning to cook inside my fire suit.
Sometimes in life time slows down, as it was doing now. I could feel hot embers in my mouth and then the orange flame changed to total blackness as I landed with a thud on the concrete floor of the building.
The heat was incredible, I thought, “I'm blind, my eyes have been burned out!” The pain was becoming intense, I thought, “Death should come quick. Or... maybe I'm already dead! Maybe I'm in Hell!” Then I heard a scream.
It was Frank. I looked in the direction of the scream and saw a pinpoint of light in the distance, a window.
I struggled to my feet and ran, explosive sounds and wave of heat following me as I sprinted across the cement floor to the window.
Engineer Garcia was leaning into the window, hands stretched out as I grabbed his wrists and he pulled me into the glorious daylight.
Within minutes I was in the back of an ambulance, with Frank Quiroz, and being administered morphine.
I reached up to my face, it felt hard and deformed.
The pain in my body changed to numbness as my mind began drifting and my senses succumbed to the narcotic.